From great pain comes great beauty.
Acclaimed singer-songwriter Mary Chapin Carpenter has been through enormous difficulties in recent years. But the anguish of her experiences has resulted in a stunningly beautiful collection of songs. The troubadour’s new Ashes and Roses album ranks as her most powerful in years, perhaps even her strongest ever.
“They say that the worst, the most traumatic things that people can go through in their lives are a divorce, the loss of a parent and catastrophic illness,” she says. “All of those things have happened to me in the last few years.
“So these are the songs that came about when I started to write. To try and push them away, or write about something else, wouldn’t have been authentic. Songwriting is what I do. This is how I make sense of things, it’s how I seek connection and make my way through the world.
“Ashes and Roses is a record about grief and loss, but it has an arc. It does go from night into day. I feel like it travels through some of the hardest, most difficult territory to a place of renewal. It speaks to that journey as it tries to describe what is seen and felt and experienced along the way. And one does get to the other side. I’m not entirely convinced that I’m through it all, but I am walking and talking and moving on with my life.”
The album’s extraordinary song list is doubtless one reason how and why Mary Chapin Carpenter can press forward. The loss conveyed in “The Swords We Carried” is expressed in a hushed melancholy that caresses the listener. No song in memory has so perfectly or poetically portrayed the emotion of grief as “Learning the World” does. In the sonorous, atmospheric, determined “Fading Away,” sadness is exchanged for the recognition of letting go.
Yet in the lilting and vividly visual “New Year’s Day” we find optimism and renewal. The rhythmic, driving “I Tried Going West” trades a heartache for a homecoming. “Soul Companion,” a groove-soaked duet with James Taylor, is a journey toward finding connection in the world again. The intimate “Old Love” wishes for love that endures.
Songs like the “What to Keep and What to Throw Away” and the sighing bonus track, “One Who’s Not Enough” are deeply personal accounts of heartbreak’s fallout. Despite their themes, both lyrics contain elements of emotional forward progress. Stately and melodic, ringing and atmospheric, “Chasing What’s Already Gone” urges strength and wisdom in looking back. From those lyrics comes the title of the album. Finding peace in the passage of time is also the theme of her philosophical ballad “Don’t Need Much to Be Happy.”
The album-closing “Jericho” is performed as a stark meditation with her lustrous alto voice accompanied only by the piano playing of the record’s co-producer, Matt Rollings. This is another song where the heart heals and beats anew. In the lovely “Another Home” and “Transcendental Reunion” we find deep, nurturing spirituality.
Yes, Ashes and Roses can be heard as a “sad” recording. But that would be denying its immense beauty as well as its shining song craftsmanship.
The experiences leading to this album’s creation began in 2007, when Mary Chapin Carpenter suffered a life-threatening pulmonary embolism. “It’s still hard to talk about. It was the most terrifying experience. The health crisis itself was enough to paralyze you and the subsequent depression that followed was so difficult. They wave goodbye to you at the hospital, and they don’t tell you—or they didn’t tell me—‘Now be aware that the next few months it’s going to be really rough, and it’s not just because you don’t feel well.’ I was completely unprepared for it.”
Eventually, her marriage ended. “A divorce is like a death,” she comments. And then, real death came. Following a lingering illness, her father died last October. “Before he passed away, I wrote him a letter that thanked him for everything that he had done for me in my life. He made me feel as if it was a noble thing to want to be an artist in the world. And I wanted him to know how grateful I was for that.” Her father, Chapin Carpenter Jr., worked for as an executive for Life magazine.
“Ashes and Roses is the most acoustic record I’ve made in years,” Carpenter observes. “The arrangements evolved around my playing. In fact, I wouldn’t even call them ‘arrangements.’ The gentlemen [at the Nashville recording sessions] are all so talented. They’d hear me play the song, and then we all just assumed our positions and played. It was very organic.
“It was harrowing writing these songs, shut away in my little back office these last few years, but I was so grateful to be recording them with these dear, dear people. They were so supportive, because recording this was not easy. There was many a day where we’d listen back to what we’d done, and I’d just be weeping quietly at the [recording-studio] board, reliving [the emotions]. They never made me feel embarrassed. It’s still very close to the bone.
“What allows me to do what I do is when people hear these songs and say, ‘That’s how I feel, too.’ It makes you realize how much we are all alike, how connected we are, and how universal our experiences are. As I’ve gotten more distance from the events of the last few years, I realize that these feelings aren’t anything to be ashamed of. More than anything, that’s what has always allowed me to make music and, certainly, make this record. As terrifying as it is to be so honest about something, at the same time, it’s even more terrifying to imagine keeping it all hidden. It’s a necessary step towards wholeness to see where we have come from. The lyric in Jericho says “we are the places that we’ve been.”
“As we get older and we lose our father and we almost die and things go terribly wrong, we realize how much we need each other. It’s in that recognition of our common experiences that we have a chance to heal and accept what has happened to us.
We are all so profoundly connected. It’s the only thing that matters. Without each other, what’s the point?”
—by Robert K. Oermann
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